Jane

Hung some laundry on the line

umm.. a bit meh… is the best way to describe today…

Awww. I’m so sorry for you. Hugs. xxxx🥺🥺🥺

10.15 am

morning

had a drink

cloudy and breezy. much cooler.

Yes. Just happened one day..out of the blue…

I future anything I dont want google seeing I shall post in the one section google cant see…

I’ll talk about this here as this is a private section away from google. My brother is 3 years older than me. For the past 8ish years he’s been disabled. He had two strokes.. he is now bedridden and has 24 hour live in carers. He can feed himself..just..and thats it. About a month ago I had a health scare…I REALLY needed my brother and my dad… 🥺🥺 Dad is in a care home..vascular dementia and Parkinson’s disease. I know that when I visit him..as soon as I leave..he’ll forget I was ever there…🥺🥺

Yes I do… it’s got worse these past few years. Curse sugar.. I need to go cold turkey.. the way I did with wine and peanuts

juice

pizza

See…when logged OUT..where I have posted in the CBT thread and about flashbacks, that is showing to google and any guests. What I said there..especially about my brother is very personal… Can that section please be made private..as in.. not viewable to guests please?

I was offered this but I declined. Some things are too painful to talk about…and I’m talking YEARS…

Sabrina I have NO idea of your situation with your brother..all I will say is this…you are lucky to still have him. My brother is disabled… two strokes.. he has 24 hour live in carers. Recently I had a major health scare..I REALLY needed my brother and my dad… Dad is in a care home..vascular dementia and Parkinson's.. so I relied on my kids. IF it is at all possible.. make up… You never know whats round the corner..

Put it this way.. I needed a change of medication because my flashbacks got so bad..I had a nervous breakdown..ended up in a MH assessment unit.. I’m sure everyone thinks ‘I’m over it’ now… nope.. just don't talk about it any more..I can see peoples eyes roll into the back of their head…then they change the subject because it makes them uncomfortable..sigh

I think sometimes that people think.. “oh here she goes again.. crying.. get over it” .. so I keep it to myself..

Awwww. Bless you. I get it. I lost one of my cats a few months ago…I miss him so much… and off I go again,, 🥺🥺

chocolate sauce

cereal

Dr Hook on the radio

. could we have a vote on which forums to remain on view and those that should remain closed off? I appreciate there is one forum closed off… but there is still some stuff viewable to google.. just a suggestion btw.. up to you.. This is why I have a PW protected forum.. A) so google and guests cant see it..and B) so newbies cant gain access straight away. I’ve had people join in the past and the first thing they wanted was access to the more private area. When I said not just yet..never saw them again. This showed me they went interested in joining in and getting to know everyone first..they just wanted to see ‘the secret’ stuff.

I am lucky..I can talk to my children.. When I had a nervous breakdown about a month ago..I told my daughter a LOT of stuff.. apparently these days that is called trauma dumping? Otherwise I try not keep on about it… I dont want to bring them down as well..

Is viewable to guests… a lot of the topics here are very sensitive in nature..I feel that a lot more should be closed off… the general chat section is ok to view…but the fact that guests can see a lot of the more personal sections is off putting.. I’m not comfortable with my more personal thoughts being viewable to the rest of the world.. I’m not saying everything has to be under lock and key…just maybe the more sensitive sections could be closed off for guests? I’m NOT criticising btw…just a suggestion. On my forum I have a pw protected area for more personal thoughts that google cant see..